How I got here, part 2

The day I got my diagnosis was a Thursday. Had I received it from a doctor familiar with adult-onset type 1, I would have likely been advised to get treatment immediately, in case I was heading for a serious crisis. This doctor, however, was a gynecologist who also does well-woman care for healthy patients. I respected her then and still do now; it was hardly her fault that I'd come to her with a serious health problem. But as she told me herself, she wasn’t intimately familiar with diabetes. She probably pegged me as a type 2 because I was 32 years old and my fasting BG, while clearly diabetic, was nowhere near an emergency number. Type 2 ain’t no picnic, but in its early stages it’s unlikely to put people in the hospital. So instead of rushing me into treatment, she referred me to a physician in the same clinic with, she said, more diabetes experience. The new doctor, it turned out, couldn’t see me until Monday.

I spent the weekend reading everything I could find about diabetes, obsessing about the grim future that I believed awaited me, cutting back on carbs, and feeling ever more nauseated. I read enough to learn that I might indeed have type 1, and that if I did I might be in danger of a life-threatening condition called DKA. But as long as I wasn’t throwing up or exhaling breath that smelled like Juicy Fruit, I probably didn’t have it yet. (Whee, good news!) Still, I came to feel a deep conviction that whatever type I had, I desperately needed insulin as soon as possible. This was my first real lesson in listening to my body. Now all I wanted was for the doctor to take me seriously on Monday.

It didn’t start out that way. When she came into the examining room, she didn’t know why I was there, not yet having looked at my file or, apparently, spoken with the intake nurse (who also hadn’t known why I was there, again not having looked at my file). I explained the results of the blood test. I described all my symptoms, the horrible thirst, the growing nausea, the weight loss. She said she would have some blood work done. I asked about testing for ketones. The books I had read over the weekend said that evaluation of a newly diagnosed diabetic should always include a check for this poison, a byproduct of the body’s attempts to convert fat into energy, which occurs in the absence of insulin. Ketones are what lead to DKA.

Not necessary, the doctor said, adding that in the early stages of type 2 ketone production is highly unlikely. I pointed out the reasons that I might have type 1 and mentioned the nausea again. She shrugged me off. I’m ashamed to say that I was too ill and exhausted to protest further. Okay, I thought, whatever, just give me the insulin. Please.

Then I donated my blood and waited, a long long time, for the results. At least they didn’t send me home; I sat in a succession of hard plastic chairs in various waiting areas. Then they put me in another examining room, where I slumped against a countertop.

Finally, the doctor came in. “I don’t think I can let you go home today,” she said. Not go home? I made, I think, a confused babbling sound. “Your blood glucose is 395,” she continued, “and you have large ketones.” Guess she changed her mind about running that test. Ahem.

She went on to explain that I might have type 1 after all. I would need to go to a hospital, or to a diabetes center if they could find one that would take me, so that I could be placed on an immediate regimen of insulin.

Aha. NOW I was being taken seriously.